I also felt that Kimberly should get the red van, and I even felt inspired as to a price. Lower than I would have sold it on the market, but it's a quick sell and to a friend. It's a good car. It's seven years old, but only has 64,000 miles on it and it's in great condition.
The kids and I cleaned it up last Wednesday after school (Wednesday they're out early). We washed it and vacuumed it and got all of our stuff out of it. After we got it all done, it was so pretty, I just got very sad. I told the kids I'd be back, and I drove around in it a bit. I couldn't drive far because I started to cry.
So I parked behind our church where no one could see me and just cried. I know it's stupid to cry over losing a vehicle. My dear friend Gabe likes to point out that it's just a car and I shouldn't be sad over losing it. But it's more than that. I bought it brand new. It's the only car I've ever had that was new. It was the nicest car I've ever owned too. We've taken it on family trips and I run errands in it daily. It's more like my right hand than a vehicle. It holds groceries and kids, is fun to drive, and I'm lost without it.
After crying, my crying turned to prayer. It was amazing the peace that washed over me. It took away the sadness and said that everything would be ok. I was told to start looking for my next vehicle to help distract me from losing this one. I felt much better, and eventually went home.
Kimberly didn't actually come to get it for almost a week as we had to work out financing, so I had a few more times to drive it before it left. I started to feel better about losing it, and by the time Kimberly came to get it, I was happy and excitedly showed her all of the "toys" like the radio and CD controls on the steering wheel. She is happy that she has it (hers is about to fall apart and die) and I'm now happy that she has it. It's still hard not having it for errands, but at least I have peace.
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